August Brain Dump

This poor blog has the same story of neglect that it had most of  last spring and I guess I am not sure what to do with it at this point.  Do I keep writing when I find the time every once in a while to have a place to remember our lives?  Do I find a different way to store all of the sacred stories we’ve created? Or do I just toss in the towel and move on.  The problem is that with these three choices I still have all kinds of posts swirling in my head but yet sitting down to write just seems unimportant when I am home with two kids who are almost 3 and almost 5.

I go back to work in 10 days and the anxiety is real.  Every August I start to get worried about balance, transitions, and time.  Yet, now I am also struggling with my purpose.    I think every fall I  slowly start to feel ready to go back to work yet this year I haven’t had that thought once.  We quickly fell in to a routine that was comfortable and easy this summer.  There is something so gratifying about my primary purpose of being a mom this summer.  Maybe it took me longer than someone who stayed at home since the birth of a child but the feeling is real.   There is something that deeply calls me to think about my future and what I want it to look like.

B&C Patio

I wrote on Instagram that this summer has been quiet, uneventful and yet so perfect that I think I am getting a glimpse in to what life is started to be with two amazing kids. I watch other kids and think how truly lucky we are to have two kids who go with the flow, are relatively well behaved and enjoy doing just about anything as long as we are together.

As this summer slowly starts to slip away, I hope I find my voice in this space again to show some things that I am excited about.