Real Talk

I really miss writing.  It’s cathartic and therapeutic. It’s a really great outlet for me to be real and put some things out there.  It’s also any easy place to hide and make life look like it is perfect.  It’s totally not by the way.

When I started blogging, right after we bought our first home in the city, I wrote because I loved having a space to document our new house and my first pregnancy.  I was naive about blogging, took terrible pictures (still do) and wrote just what was on my mind.  At the same time, I also got caught up in reading the popular blogs, mostly mommy blogs if I am bieng honest.  I was trying, not very hard, to be a “blogger” with these visions of it becoming something bigger, better, and more important.  And it never did.  I went from blogger to WordPress-even though I still have no clue how to use WordPress.  Most days, I am guessing it was just my mama reading.

And two kids later, a different house, a move from urban to suburban and a lot of other things along the way, I just kind of stopped writing for me.  And for my kids.  I still write them 2 letters a year.  But, I stopped documenting some of the little things that I want to remember.

But, here’s the thing.  I still miss writing.  In the summer, I find my mind restless because I am not writing.  About all kinds of things- food, photography, kids, life, exercise and just news.  So, I am going to give this writing thing a go… maybe not here.  Maybe not in this space- that part I don’t know about yet.  For now, I’m staying.   Regardless, I am going to start writing again for me- not worrying about who reads it or how many page views I get.  I am just going to write.

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Currently

Currently…

enjoying: the feeling that comes as fall has rushed it’s way in to our house. The decorations, smells, excitement over Halloween and the comfort that lazy mornings in bed with hot coffee bring to our routine. As much as I love Christmas, something about fall screams family to me and quiet memories.

dreaming: about the day that I feel like I have been enough to everyone and have a tank left to nurture myself.  Seriously, the quest to be it all is not easy and a consistent battle in my head.

loving: the series on A Bowl Full of Lemons which is 31 Days of Purging in October. 2 days in I was in good shape. Not so much anymore but I that hasn’t stopped me from saving a list of her purge day tasks in my feedly so I can complete each of them. Today, it is all about dresser drawers which may have to be tackled this weekend but I feel lighter already and know I need to do this.

 watching: leaves fall off the trees as fall has quickly arrived.  Cate declares that it is raining leaves and I watch my little girl in amazement of the crisp leaves fall off the trees on the street. Three is magical and monsterful all at once.

reading: any magazine that is getting delivered to my house. I am obsessed with Food and Wine and the minute my HGTV magazine shows up I am reading it.  I love Women’s Health, Real Simple, Rachel Ray, Cooking Light and Self. Tell me that I am not the only one that doesn’t love a new magazine curled up on the couch.

quoting:  nothing but Brady on repeat is quoting the guys from Monday night football who says “Come On Man” when going over the weekend lows from the NFL. The best part is that he says the statement in the right context every single time which is ever funnier.

thinking: about trying to carve out some time with people that mean a lot to me.  From my kids, to my husband, my mom and my friends I’m really evaluating how I spend my time and with who and hoping to be more intentional with my time.  Life seems to be at NASCAR race pace and since I don’t think it will let up I want to do what’s in my power to make sure that I spending my time with intention and purpose.

 drinking: lots of water including La Croix which is starting to win me over. It’s an acquired taste but I do like it to break up the monotony of the water I drink on a daily basis.

craving: my mama’s fresh, piping hot vegetable soup with crusty bread that just came out of the oven. Fall signals soups for days in my mind and I’m not picky about what kind.  We’re having homemade chicken noodle last nightt which is good start to soup season in my opinion.

listening to: anything that Sam Smith sings. Not surprising since I love Adele and some claim he is the male version of her. “Make it to Me” is constantly on repeat in my brain.

 

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The Break Up

Dear Starbucks,

I can’t believe this is happening to us.  I never saw this coming.  And it happens to so many other people but I swore it wouldn’t happen to us.  I thought we were past this.  Accepting one another and settling in.  It’s so hard thinking because we have invested so much time and energy and money in to our relationship.  Breaking up is just so hard to do.  It’s not you. It’s me. Well, actually it is you and me.  But the truth is well; I’m just not that in to you anymore.  Here’s the thing. I have been a faithful drinker of your Venti Chai Tea lattes for most of my teaching career. That’s ten years if you’re counting.   Some days, on my worst days, two a day.  And passion tea lemonades in the summer are my first choice late in the afternoon.  But your ridiculous daily drive-thru debacles pushed me over the edge and is what I just can’t do anymore.  It makes every morning stressful.  And the drink is just not worth it anymore.  Not to mention the price.

Here’s the thing. I really want you.  I like stopping and getting that cup every morning.  It gets me moving and out of bed.  I love your holiday cups.  I like nursing that drink in the morning to start my day.  But over break I stopped because the Polar Vortex hit and it was just too cold to go out even for coffee.  Couple that with the fact that the drive thru is never fast, the line always long,  the people rarely nice and it always being understaffed I just stopped going.

I quit you pretty much cold turkey.  And it’s been hard.  Emotionally and caffeine speakign.  So, I started using this coffee maker at home that I bought my husband for Christmas and realized how easy it was, cheap it was and free of morning headaches because there was no parking spot that required me to walk past a drive thru where people never look or a line out the lot for the actual drive-thru that added 20 minutes to my morning routine.  And, I also realized in my quest to get healthier just how bad that chai tea was for me.  And if I am honest, I gave you another chance. One morning, I stopped.  I just wanted you back.  In that moment.  And my drink was wrong and tasted terrible.   I got frustrated.

So here we are.  Me wondering what is happening to me.  Going to coffee.  At home. In a carrier cup. And being okay with it.  I worry about those gold stars expiring and the huge balance on my card.  I wonder if I change my drink if I will come back.  Some days. Randomly when it sounds good. But for now, it’s over and I’m sorry. Can we still be acquaintances?

Sincerely,

Your Once Faithful Drinker

In all seriousness, I was drinking Starbucks once a day 7 days a week and quit. And it feels kind of liberating.  And it is helping my waistline. And my morning stress. But I also miss it. But the hassle of the one by my house is just not worth it.  So, talk me to me about coffee and flavors. I need suggestions but I love Caribou’s Morning Blend with Vanilla or Hazelnut creamer.  What about you?

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Outfit of the Day {Week 1}

Early in my teaching career I kept this spreadsheet calendar thingy and I would document what I wore every single day to school.  I did to ensure I didn’t wear the same things all the time and to try to maxmize my closet.  (For the record, I went an entire school year and never wore the same outfit.  Crazy, right?) Then I had kids. And my figure changed.  Two pregnancies will do that to you.  Now two years after my second child was born I am feeling better (there is always room for improvement right?) about my figure and I am committed to not only caring about what I wear but holding myself accountable so I don’t fall in to the same predictable rut with clothes.

New school year equals new clothes for me. I have staples that stay in my closet for more than one school year but I love to update my closet every year and stay current with the trends…at least some of them.  At the end of last year, I started to post my #ootd #teacherstyle on Instagram and people commented about my clothes and asked brand questions a lot and truth be told it held me accountable to get dressed every single day.  To actually think about what I was going to wear and to challenge myself to wear everything in my closet.  If you know me IRL, you know that I am a closet hoarder. I have a hard time throwing things out but rarely wear them over again.  So, this year, I am committed to recapping what I wear every week and give you a glimpse in to my teacher garb. If you want to join me, I will make a linky tool. I would love to see what others are wearing.  Most weeks it will be Monday- Thursday since Fridays are reserved for jeans and school spirit gear! If you have questions I am happy to answer what I am wearing!

Happy Friday Friends! Busy weeeknd for us. A special little girl turns two on Monday!

Week 1 #ootd #teacherstyle

Week 1 #ootd #teacherstyle

 

 

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5 Things Update

Happy Friday friends! Dang, this week just flew by. Two weeks ago I posted about my List of Five Things- for me, my kids and my house.  It’s two-week later and I have accomplished some things…Let’s see how I did shall we?

5 Things for the Kids

  • Go to the zoo Brookfield or Lincoln Park– headed to the Brookfield Zoo tomorrow! That counts right? 
  • Go the beach  We have been twice actually to the Glencoe Beach! It has been hot and that has helped but we had such a good time both times we went!
  • Go to Ravinia Kids Music Festival or the Wednesday night Concert in the Park series– We went this past Wednesday the weather was amazing and we had fun but had to leave a little earlier than we hoped because our kids were kind of naughty! 
  • Ride the train and have lunch with daddy
  • Go to a water park

5 Things for the Home

  • Finish the wall art in the living room above the couch
  • Buy an accent piece for the entry way   It’s cute and from an antique market in my hometown. Totally my style which I need to show you more of soon promise!
  • Mark out and decide on dining room table we know what size we need now it is just a matter of going to have it custom-made.
  • Re-finish vintage buffet for dining room (Bradyism “Can I get a little help here?”)- halfway done. It is up to me to get it 100% done. More on this soon!
  • Get kitchen office area organized

5 Things for Me

  •  Get new running shoes
  •  Get a massage
  •  Buy a pair of black pants
  •  Take a huge bike ride in the Forest Preserve or one the lakefront
  •  Spend an afternoon at the pool alone with a book.

I will add that the past two weeks we went to Navy Pier and their Children’s Museum for a day and we took Brady to Legoland so we did a lot of really fun stuff that wasn’t even on my list.  On top of that the air conditioner for our upstairs zone went out on last Wednesday and the landscaping in our front yard just got completed. Not too shabby right? How were the past two weeks friends? Happy Weekend!

 

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Lists of Five Things

I looked at the calendar today and realized I go back to school in five weeks exactly.  Then I looked at my list of things I wanted to do with the kids, to the house and for myself and realized there is no chance most of those things will get done.  And if I am honest, it frustrates the heck out of me.  The balance being at home is really hard for me. When my kids are home I don’t want to drag them to Pottery Barn I want to play, and swim and bike and enjoy the weather.  I feel really funny about putting them at daycare in the summer when I am home because they deserve some time at home with their mama away from the grind we do 10 months out of the year.  I found myself spending my one day this week that was kid free shopping, working out, having lunch and reading at the pool for an hour and yet I am mad at myself that my walls are still bare and there are so many rooms that need attention in our house.

Some of you will tell me I am just lucky I get some me time.  Some of you will tell me, including my ma, that I need to have days like these.   I get it. I know that as a teacher I need some down time. Some time to be me, relax, decompress and just be.  But I also know how precious time is when I am kid free and can actually work on a project.

So, today I am making a 5 Things List. 5 things I want to do with the kids before I return to work, 5 things I want to get done in my house and 5 things I want to do for me.  Sure, it could be 500 in some categories but I am trying to keep it attainable and doable and then we or I will make another list.

5 Things for the Kids

  • Go to the zoo- Brookfield or Lincoln Park
  • Go the beach
  • Go to Ravinia Kids Music Festival or the Wednesday night Concert in the Park series
  • Ride the train and have lunch with daddy
  • Go to a waterpark

5 Things for the Home

  • Finish the wall art in the living room above the couch
  • Buy an accent piece for the entry way
  • Mark out and decide on dining room table
  • Re-finish vintage buffet for dining room (Bradyism “Can I get a little help here?”)
  • Get kitchen office area organized

5 Things for Me

  •  Get new running shoes
  •  Get a massage
  •  Buy a pair of black pants
  •  Take a huge bike ride in the Forest Preserve or one the lakefront
  •  Spend an afternoon at the pool alone with a book.

Totally doable right? Right. So, I am going to hold myself to it and check in weekly with you before I go back to school to show you what I have done. Hmmm… where should I start?

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