August Brain Dump

This poor blog has the same story of neglect that it had most of  last spring and I guess I am not sure what to do with it at this point.  Do I keep writing when I find the time every once in a while to have a place to remember our lives?  Do I find a different way to store all of the sacred stories we’ve created? Or do I just toss in the towel and move on.  The problem is that with these three choices I still have all kinds of posts swirling in my head but yet sitting down to write just seems unimportant when I am home with two kids who are almost 3 and almost 5.

I go back to work in 10 days and the anxiety is real.  Every August I start to get worried about balance, transitions, and time.  Yet, now I am also struggling with my purpose.    I think every fall I  slowly start to feel ready to go back to work yet this year I haven’t had that thought once.  We quickly fell in to a routine that was comfortable and easy this summer.  There is something so gratifying about my primary purpose of being a mom this summer.  Maybe it took me longer than someone who stayed at home since the birth of a child but the feeling is real.   There is something that deeply calls me to think about my future and what I want it to look like.

B&C Patio

I wrote on Instagram that this summer has been quiet, uneventful and yet so perfect that I think I am getting a glimpse in to what life is started to be with two amazing kids. I watch other kids and think how truly lucky we are to have two kids who go with the flow, are relatively well behaved and enjoy doing just about anything as long as we are together.

As this summer slowly starts to slip away, I hope I find my voice in this space again to show some things that I am excited about.

 

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OOTD {Week 2}

Easy week for me to get dressed! No school Monday and no school Thursday means I only had to get dressed two days this week for real.  Today, I am sporting a bright red t-shirt supporting our PAC (contract negotiations team) and my teacher’s union because we are working without a contract currently.  With the weather staying warm I am trying to squeak in as many skirts and dresses as possible before I am relegated to pants, leggings and jeans.

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White jeans in September? I think so. I think that fashion no-no doesn’t really exsist anymore right? Happy weekend friends! We are going to sneak in some beach time, Brady starts hockey and of course the Bears are on Sunday at noon!

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Currently

Happy Friday Friends! Sorry it’s been a bit quiet this week. Life just got in the way and we have been having way to much fun! I will be back with a list update next week and some other posts but today I am linking up with one of my favorite weekly link-ups.  Currently I am…

Smelling the sweet and salty smell of the Neutrogena sunscreen my kids wear on a daily basis. I think that this smell will forever remind me of my kids and the summer weather because whether we are at the park, the pool or they are at daycare that I can smell their sunscreen anywhere.

Wishing we could get to the bottom of Cate’s situation. I was going to post about her skin issues but then they even took a bigger turn for the worse and now we aren’t really sure what is going on so until I know more I am going to hold off.  What I can tell you is that my poor sweet girl is so itchy and uncomfortable in her own skin that it is almost hard to watch. Every day when we take her clothes off to either get her dressed or give her a bath, I pray in that moment that it has all gone away.  So far, that has not been the case.

Loving these last few glorious days before I return to work next week.  I am in squeeze all things in and get all things done mode but it is good and fun and my kids are so content right now.  Mother Nature has blessed us with mild weather in the past few weeks to the point that it has been plain cold some nights.  The sunny days, cooler temps and less humidity have allowed for our windows to be open.  It has also meant we can enjoy our time outdoors instead of being sweaty all the time.  With no routine, I find myself saying yes more and accepting that my kids just want to be kids. The park, the pool and the beach all made their way into our week this week and we had fun. This is honestly the first summer I can truly say I am not ready to go back to school.

Pouring more water as I have gotten into a nice routine with exercise. I am a better person when I exercise and I feel better. Just happier, calmer and patient.    The more I exercise the more I feel myself wanting water instead of pop or lemonade.  I love adding fruit to my water just to give it a bit of flavor but to be honest there is nothing more refreshing to me than an ice cold glass of water.  A mason jar helps too right?

Talking to Cate before she goes to sleep.  Cate and I have this funny routine at night. She is a dictator about it.  She is our snuggle bed and will let you rock her all night if you want to and that part of the routine makes up for the other part.   It makes me think of that book “Love You Forever” because I honestly think I will be sneaking in to her room when she is older to rock her because she will let me and since she is my last baby I won’t say no to it.  However, when you rock her you have to sing to her. I don’t exactly have a singing voice and the only song she will stand for is the A-B-C song.  I swear if you recorded it you would laugh at my voice but the minute you start singing her breathing slows, her head settles in my shoulder and I usually tear up because I am full of  love that is greater than I thought capable.

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A Day at the Pier (Almost Wordless Wednesday)

Waiting

B&C

( I love this picture above)

Sizing it Up

ferriswheel

Looking Up

Brady

And Now Down

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Lists of Five Things

I looked at the calendar today and realized I go back to school in five weeks exactly.  Then I looked at my list of things I wanted to do with the kids, to the house and for myself and realized there is no chance most of those things will get done.  And if I am honest, it frustrates the heck out of me.  The balance being at home is really hard for me. When my kids are home I don’t want to drag them to Pottery Barn I want to play, and swim and bike and enjoy the weather.  I feel really funny about putting them at daycare in the summer when I am home because they deserve some time at home with their mama away from the grind we do 10 months out of the year.  I found myself spending my one day this week that was kid free shopping, working out, having lunch and reading at the pool for an hour and yet I am mad at myself that my walls are still bare and there are so many rooms that need attention in our house.

Some of you will tell me I am just lucky I get some me time.  Some of you will tell me, including my ma, that I need to have days like these.   I get it. I know that as a teacher I need some down time. Some time to be me, relax, decompress and just be.  But I also know how precious time is when I am kid free and can actually work on a project.

So, today I am making a 5 Things List. 5 things I want to do with the kids before I return to work, 5 things I want to get done in my house and 5 things I want to do for me.  Sure, it could be 500 in some categories but I am trying to keep it attainable and doable and then we or I will make another list.

5 Things for the Kids

  • Go to the zoo- Brookfield or Lincoln Park
  • Go the beach
  • Go to Ravinia Kids Music Festival or the Wednesday night Concert in the Park series
  • Ride the train and have lunch with daddy
  • Go to a waterpark

5 Things for the Home

  • Finish the wall art in the living room above the couch
  • Buy an accent piece for the entry way
  • Mark out and decide on dining room table
  • Re-finish vintage buffet for dining room (Bradyism “Can I get a little help here?”)
  • Get kitchen office area organized

5 Things for Me

  •  Get new running shoes
  •  Get a massage
  •  Buy a pair of black pants
  •  Take a huge bike ride in the Forest Preserve or one the lakefront
  •  Spend an afternoon at the pool alone with a book.

Totally doable right? Right. So, I am going to hold myself to it and check in weekly with you before I go back to school to show you what I have done. Hmmm… where should I start?

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